HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZELNUT

If you were Thumbelina
Just think of all you’d see ….
The rainbow in a dew-drop,
The soft fur on a bee.
The sparkle of a spiders web
Hung with beads of rain.
The warm smile of a buttercup
When the sun comes out again.

When we first met, it was 30mins late to class and we were chased away by a furious lecturer. My nut, number one gruesome twosome relic of the triple-trouble girls, turns a year older. You are a happy presence in my life, especially for your awareness that, no matter how frustrating, how draining or demanding deadlines get, we. Cannot. Stop. The. Party.

LIFE ADMIN

Nights = random insight. Upon the routine activity of staying up to sob over schoolwork, my mind reached a startling revelation : my weight vacillates proportionately to the amount of milo available at home. My weight. Vacillates. Proportionately. To the amount of milo. Available at home. The two central compulsions in my life (1. stay skinny 2. obtain milo) are at odds.

Also, Halloween.

I WANT TO SPEAK. INTO YOUR MOUTH.

Auntie may stopped to mingle, pulling Joe close by his neck – I’ve never known anyone to look so irrepressibly adorable while seemingly on the verge of tears. Dirk + Jinesh met Sheena + me for dinner after their Mandarin class. The NEA copped a cool two hundred from Nana and I EACH for narcotic dumping. Joe visited post-dinner. Sheena brought a stillborn chick from Science class for scrutiny. Jinesh had ginger tea which was a surprising bouquet of tartness. I remember laughter, catching kisses at the corners of our eyes, footsies, the familiar Newton hustle and sambal kangkong in the sublime pocket of time before the last bus leaves. Joy is such a touch-and-go affair isn’t it? A world apart from today ; stubbornly foolish, foolishly hopeful as I am, I am not used to letting go. There is a nagging feeling somewhere in my chest, somewhere off centre, slightly to the left.

POSTDATE

Before Sheryl left, we had a good ol’ hang with Mag. Did the old catch-up, spilt the new confessions and dished the gossip. I feel that Mag’s a human love machines like Jinesh and Jack, you’ve just gotta let her know you’re down and she oozes heartfelt affection from every pore. I have never actually heard her voice a sour thought against anyone and have decided already that she’s got a rare heart of gold.

Anyway Sheryl, let nothing stop you from catching the next flight back into my waiting arms.